Archive for January, 2011

January 25, 2011

Chalkboard paint…

If I ever have the space for a library, it will definitely incorporate a chalkboard wall. I remember my earlier pre-med years: a group of us w0uld always be studying furiously away in one of the study rooms. It definitely helped that each room had its own big chalk board where we would scribble the organic chem equations or cell and molecular mechanism on.

There are so many other ways you can incorporate this “chalkboard paint” effect to the other spaces of your home. Just do some research and you’ll see 🙂


January 18, 2011

I failed at friendship.
I need to try harder.
Part of me just want to close myself shut
but the other does not want to be a coward.

I have no confident. 
If only there is a book for all of this
Is there?

It’s hard to hear what your friends really
think about you.
Must not let all of these hurts get in,
Because indeed they are mostly truths.

But am I really that bad?
I hope not
I am not that bad
After all they loved me once.

I think I just get too comfortable
at hurting people who are closer
because I assumed they are afterall
the ones that understand me most
the ones that I can be myself around.

But how wrong am I
Of course only my sisters would stick around
Who can really truly deal with me
I can’t even deal with myself.

I guess that’s why I don’t deal with myself
I thought I only need to deal with my friends.  
I thought that’s what friends are for
I let them be themselves and
they let me be myself.

Maybe all I really need is making the
right type of friends.

Will this ever get easier?
I’m 27 yet i’m still a failure at

January 14, 2011

Fresh start…

I miss this! All of this. I miss design. I miss this part of me. I shall come back and make time for what I love most!



Hotel Room above The Lake Effect Casino